I'm sorry it took so long to write after my mastectomy but i have been dealing with things that I didn't expect but I guess I should have. I'm working hard on trying to get my head straight after chemo and the surgeries but the lows are very low and way too often. I am depressed and now have to get help for that. Its a chemical issue and needs to be healed but I don't want medication to get straight again. I have to now see other doctors for this and I will be better I hope soon. My best friends are going through some amazingly positive things and they have let me be a big part of that which has made this easier and I thank them for that. I feel blessed. I had my mastectomy and was suppose to be in the hospital for at most 3 days but I went home on the 5th day. It was harder then I was told but I guess it usually is easier and most women bounce back faster. I took my pain meds through the chemo for the bone pain and all of that and also through the surgery so now I'm dealing with slowly getting off of those which has been hard but I know I can do this. I have been watching a lot of netflix which has helped keep my mind off of things but easily the shows capture my emotions and they change my moods for how the episodes change. I was suppose to be having my surgery two to three months after my mastectomy and then it would all be over and I can get my life back together but my doctor doesn't have an opening for surgery for 7 months so again I have to put my life on hold which didn't help the depression much. It made me sink lower actually. I don't have my job anymore so Ill have to start looking for something that pays well but the doctor said he cant clear me to start working again until i get myself back on track. I have videos of after the mastectomy and photos of the drain tubes but ill save an extra blog at another date to go into full detail about how that went and what they did. I used latisse on my eye lashes and eye brows and that made them grow back in a few weeks. I found the generic stuff and ordered it and a lot more so if anyone wants to try some its $30 a bottle. I have about 25 of them. Its hard to write much because I know its not the best news and i should be happier but after i take care of these problems ill be on my way to a better life.
Thanks for following my story.
-Carina
